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Thursday, September 28, 2006
oh wells. so i have been wanting to blog, wanting to photoshop, wanting to do alot of things. especaily with my boyfiend. nyehha.. :)) but all this got to wait till my lady lumps gets the better of it. im sick of being at home.and laying on the bed on my back. ps** note: only on my back. i miss my style of sleeping. :(
i miss hugging my friend, hugging my borfiend. :(( i have to makesure nothing gets in contct with my lady lumps. :(( ugggh.
im doing preety fine. no worries. thanks to ira, mizah, aida, irwan,yazid,and alot more who came down to visit me. really man..loads of thanks yous to you guys. and neverthless i must thanks my boyfriend who was with me from day 1 of operation till today. and he has not been buke-ing at his house even.
you stayed with me the whole day at the hospt. thanks dear. you were there even when my parents were gone. you pushed me on the wheelchair eventhough we look kinda retarded. hehehe. but ya thanks dear. i really appreciate those. love you honey monkey:))
to my NYP friends : i miss sch!
to pizzahut: ya ya.. i will come down to work in 8 more days.
1:40 AM
Saturday, September 23, 2006
AND before you think its a piece of an ordinary news,
its 1:47am in the morning, not in my own comfort zone but at east coast park. waiting for hafiz. we're supposedly to attend our friends pit but then there were so many guys with no food! ugh! so ya i and mizah decided to go to the internet cafe whereas the guys decided to remain at the pit. how sad or i shall say how pathetic.
tomorow it's a full shift fer me at work. i dun mind the tired cause i've got my lovely hamizah to accompany me till the end of the day. and managers for mid-shift is encar and night shift is yul. :)) yays.
and just because i hadnt been attending work for about a week, i feel confused and lost as though im missing on alot of stuff. :(( and i hate tt feeling.and im drained. darn my contacts are like so dried that every blink result in so much pain. the thruth is that, sometimes my life is bliss and sometimes its much of non-existence to me.
...if being aware is draining then i know how the word "ignorance is bliss" comes about.so i guess now i shall float like a feather.i will pretend tts everything fine, pretend everything's perfect anmd pretend everythings pure, that's so much of pretending.ok then.im soooo afraid for monday.
prayers for me pls.
preety pls.
and here's something for my project friends includes, zainal, lizah, shila and nurul. im so sorry if i cant be attending and doing project with you guys for the week. :(( i feel preety bad but ya. i will strive to catch up. thanks alot dear-ed friends.
2:31 AM
Friday, September 22, 2006
Sorry about that. FYI im officailly internet-less. so i haven written an entry in like forever. cause i have been soo soo busy. (thats' so redundant) well perhaps i wasnt tt busy but i've got lots of stuff to do and everything seems to b never ending.
my life has been preety much of something like this.
good, and then bad... bad..bad...bad... and it remains bad and then a week's time things get better and then the vicious cycle continue.
i swear its so compulsive.
cue: self-dissapointment.
im supposedly typing out a quickie entry to summarize my summarized life. blah!
but surprisingly nothing preety much happen on those days when im gone exception to much tears and sometimes good laughters with friends. and ohgoddamnyes! The fasting month is in in abt 2 days frm today.
so ppl Selamat Berpuase ya! :))
im being true here, i still hadn pay back my previous (last months) fast. its like ohno! damn. that makes twice for next yr.:(( i tell you,i love the hari raya. i so cant wait man! wuhooos.
i hopes and prayed and ya things go preeety fine with my life cause it has brought so much dissapointment t me.At times I feel like I'm just really weary of this world. Tired and sick and tired. Of everything and everyone. Of being weak. Of being cynical. Of being so hateful. When I know I'm not like that at all. And I'm tired of hope. And of hoping. And hoping and hoping and hoping and living each day hoping and hoping and hoping. When nothing I hope ever comes. And it's frustratin.Like sometimes i wonder what does my life depend on.And I feel like I don't deserve good things in life at all. So then hoping would be totally useless to someone like me. But then I know I can't stop, can't help myself. I can't stop hoping even when I wanted to. (Which is kind of pathetic, seeing as I can't even control what I want to do and feel anymore.)
ok. its a pity i always relate things to myself and soemhow being involve in my own world. how selfish.
nevertheless, because of this shitness.fatin is what fatin is now.anunglyfugly MONSTER!ok im quite desperate now for a good fucking life and ps: with a good ladylumps.
only my close ones get wht i mean. :((
im off for now.till then.
6:36 PM
Monday, September 04, 2006
im tired with life. things get preety bad especially when you have the boyfriend who is perpetually killing you in the inside. Thats how my fucking drastically bad life has been
Can someone kill me. preety pls. Im giving you the scissors.
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pls kill me. and i dont wish to host up any more entires for the mean time.
6:39 AM
Friday, September 01, 2006
you've made my day
and i love you so much. Y :D
10:35 PM
PART 1
2ND PART
3rd part
YOU GUYS ARE GREATLY MISSED :D
9:10 PM
Eventhough life has been a mess for me for the past 31 days, the beggining of september was bliss.i actually went crazier then i thought i should in August.aniways, i managed to surpass it without having to have any breakups. :)))
hola ola. :)))
and then again.ystd things get better in the evening. went out with my beloved sister to Tampines Mall.We wanted to get something for her boyfriend. so we bought this FOX shirt at surf and ski that cost her firggin $89 dollars.i just adore the guy at the Surf and Ski because he looks like Fahrin. No, i dun mean i like Fahrin but every now and then. i have been seeing Fahrin's clone.
here's something from Aida
aida: Muke Fahrin kan muke poster pat skola kiter orang.
and i have to say this is soooo trrruuuueeee. everywhere we go, we see ppl tt has similar features with fahrin.Btw, jus FYI, fahrin is a very good-looking rider. :))) i bet if he seees this, his gonna be verrrryyyy verrrryyyy happy. Guys! oh ya, bck to the shop, the Fahrin guy was rather friendly with me.
me: do you have size L for this shirt?
him: ade pat rumah saya.
me: haha okay.
him:stock dier blum datang, ade colors bleh?
me: i think i'll take yang hitam
him: wokay. asal L tak amek XL.?
me: oh..dier tak suke pakai besar2
him: ohhh....ye ke?. saya suke pakai besar2.
me: ok. (honestly i didnt even ask you!)
hahahah. tt left me smilling as i made my way out of the store after purchasing.
hahah. Friendly Guys. i so adore! hate those stuck-up ones. After buying the present, we eat the yummy-licious NEW YORK PIZZA.Tts so yummy yum yum. tt made me and my sis bloated for the day.
after that i heade to Changi Airport with my parents.
OMFG. tis was the first time in the month tt i spent more then 150 dollars!!!! i bought a total of 3 Bods Bodynits Tops. and im so loving it that i cant resist it but to wear to sch today.:)))) and then i reached home.as i about to close my eyes my handphone vibrated. guess what it says
HAPPY ANNIVERSARY!!!!! soory terlamabt.!!!
hahahahs. tt made me soooooo hhhhaaappppyyy for the day! very happy! i look at the time it was 12:45am. so i guess its alright though.
and im soooo gladdd... :D
okay, i wun be bloggin till i find the next available computerTEP has come to an end and im very much very sad, becuase this stop-over has been a pleasant one. the ppl the only stop-over tt allows me t be late. and i so love it.
i will host up BSU project team 3 mates shortly.
6:16 PM
HAPPY 9 MONTHS ANNIVERSARY
5:55 PM
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