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Thursday, August 31, 2006
i forgot how its like being single.
can someone tell me about it. maybe i suit there even better.
imjustfuckedupwithlifefornow.
1:53 AM
im updating cause i just wana self-proclaimed of how much i hated august. Its like. never ending. Eventhough its a day to go. and there comes September, but every minute of the clock is like taking one moder-fucker millions of years.
if you can read my lips, this is exactly wht im saying.
NABEH CHHEBYY!!!
God can you pls hurry September, any more minute of August, im sure to die. I've had enough of August. and i hope that September is a direct opposite of August pls! well everyone let us just hook fingers and pray that Sept would b a better month.
and, OMFG! the boyfriend tested me up to my limits ystd. i could have died. i NEVER cried alone in public. NEVER. Especially in public and alone. i got 101 stares for crying ystd, sobbing all my to chinese garden and all the way home to Bedok. OMG. i dont know boyfriends are capable of this.
like i always say, maybe its just me, im a bad girlfriend.
IM A B-A-D, SELFISH, SELF-CENTERED GIRLFRIEND!
ok fine. i still dont feel good though!
ystd was my first entire time in my life, i switched off my HP. ususally it either died by iteself or the batt died.But ystd, i switched off my phone! and never switched it on till today morning. i didnt feel relieved or anything. i feel goddamn numb.shits
talk about anniversary, tommorow is my 9 month. who the hell cares. i guess its only me. me me me. the boyfriend is happily working cause tommorw is teacher's day and there is no school and that means full-bloody-shift for him. WTF.
To Aida; sorry though. i thought about baking the cookies together for the anniversary. but ya. No anniversarys i guess for August.
cause August SUCKS big time. & tht
I need to b constantly reminded that you LOVED me
I NEED.
am i not worth the effort?
i dont want to meet with Dissapointment anymore.
12:44 AM
Wednesday, August 30, 2006
myabe im just not a good girlfriend.
-FUCK. do i have to cry everytime?
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1:52 AM
Tuesday, August 29, 2006
oh yes. im damn angry with the boyfriend. how about very very angry.
and if his not messaging me today! im preety fine! really.
i think-
so ystd my day ended feeling so fucked up. :((
i need the remedy for this. and i think this time its gonna be shopping.but i jus dont have the $$$
and just when i thought tt pprojects are done and reports of presentation completed, my lovely deared Michael Triarico came in for an absolute surprise for more upcoming assignments. My Goals ppt and the overall TEP report which im trying to understand the bulk of work and at the same time trying to swallow the fact tt i got to do this and the due date is tommorw
WTH.
like how the Tririco always put it.
"well, this will keep you guys busy for the mean time"
sighs.
and now i think school is stupid.and it still it is.eventhough i used to love it.
oh yes i just realised something 2 more days to my 9 mnth anniversary. No wonder we fight. Seriously, every month, a week before my anniversary,i will always find myself not in good terms with the boyfriend. i think we've been cursed. maybe tts why. from the 25th of a particular mnth to the end of the month, thinks gets easily heated up eventhough its the negligible things of all. like the missing of the screw nut!
yes. now then i realised why we're in such heated and tensed condition. (cause the anniversary is approaching!!!)
but y isiit so?
are we really cursed?pffft
anw.i guess i'll update in the mid-afternnon later. i need to do my ppt slides.
6:38 PM
Monday, August 28, 2006
i so absofuckinglutely love the new mentos packaging!
11:36 PM
ive been the loyal siglapians for the weekends. or shall i say every weekends. :)) i so adore the nightlife and the late-afternoon plus evenings there.be it just chilling at the starbucks or hanging around the whole area. the stroll especially. its like e "friends pot". Ouh i so adore Siglap!
Saturday was fab! i work from 12-5pm :))
cause i had something on at night. got this kind of kenduri that me and the boyfriend had to attend to.
the 12-5 shift was fun. had mizah sue nadia. great werking collegues.
listen up. heres the fun n intersting part on saturday. a group of at least 10 (not forgetting to mention damn good-looking) guys enterd my pizzahut. its ira's friends.
ok here's what i told my friends
me: eh, mizah, sue, ros, nadia, aku volunteer sepenuh hati aku and aku rela amek dorang nye order ok.! aku volunteer tau ni!!!!
nadia: eh eh..kau laki handsome je nak amek order. okok..tkpe aku send dorang nye air.
sue: okok...aku anta soup.
me: okok..bes bes.. well planed.
getting ready to take-order.
then......
my manager (mr soma) say this.
mr.soma: fatin, fatin, can you hlp out with the expeditor area with haifz. help to clean and wipe the cutleries!
me: aaaarrrrggghhh!!!!!!!!!!!! dont want!!!!! i volunteer to take order already!!! i dont want!!!!!
mr soma: y u dont want? go go... go wipe the cutleries with hafiz
me: i dun wan.!!!! arrrrgghh!!!!
mr soma: let them take-order.
me: ahhhh.... no!!!!!!!
nadia, sue and mizah was luffin their heads off.
in the expeditor area.
hafiz: asal muke masam aje
me: abes orang kene wipe cutleries. orang nak amek order!!!!
hafiz: eh! slalunye tak suke amek order. ni confirm laki2 handsome!!!!
me: ar ar lar!!!!!! oran volunteer lagi tau!!! arrggghh!!!
hafiz: da la!!!! mari sikit oran tengok handsome ke tak.
(peeps through the curtains)
hafiz: eeeeeeee...dorang budak kecik lar 15-16 yrs old
me: ala stakat 2 yrs difference je!!!
hafiz: fatin!!!!!!!
me: ala..tak kn tu poun nak jealous. dorang budak2 kecik je!!!!!!!! orng nak amek order je... bukan nak amek nombo!!!
hafiz: da la!!!
later.their pizza arrived.
me: okok..aku anta pizza ni!!!
hafiz: nak anta? kalau nak anta.. cut the pizza yourself.
ali (rider): eh eh.. hafiz, melampau nah kau nye jealous.
hafiz: mesti la. abes sayang aku nak tengok laki2 hansome je
me: tu budak budak kecik lar!!!!! hahahahahha
me and ali was luffing our ass off.
and he still didnt cut the pizza for me! hahahah... mizah was giggling and nadia was in hysterical lufters.
how cant i resist not to work at pizzahut.
at i went home. and i waited for my boyfriend to go home from werk as well. but before heading off, we wanted to borrow some vcds for the later movie marathon at my house. i was like okay.
so we went into Video-EZY at Siglap.
1st vcd picked was TAXI and then 8 Below and finally.....we couldnt decide on the last vcd
him: awak, can we watch into the blue?
(FYI: Jessica Alba's the actress)
me: dun wan ar.
him: y?
me: cause you would be staring only at jessica alba.
him: ala bukan nyer dapat.
me: tau lar...hmmm... takpe ar...borrow ar..laki dier pun hot jugak.
him: tak nak ar!!!! da ar !!! tk nk borrow ar.
me: asal?????
him: awak cakap laki dier hot!!
me: ala bukan nyer kite dapat.
him: awak dapat!!!
me: biler?!?!?! kalau malam ni kite dapat dier. skrng jugak kite nak borrow VCD ni. hahahahhahas.
him: aaaawwwwaaakkk!!!!
me: hahahahha..
guys guys guys.
super cute of them :)) i so adore the boyfriend.
anw ya. i LOVE siglap
11:12 PM
Sunday, August 27, 2006
it doesnt matter wht the content carries or who gave it to me.
wht matters most is that, youre the one i adore being with and you've been there to put up so much of me. and i thank you for that sweetie.
you know who you are,
a double paged entry. w/o any line spacing.
to the one she loved.
from the one she loved.
ppss: writings are blured to avoid revealing of content.
11:24 PM
 thursday my boyfriend made me feel like a fool seriously!
we sat at the void-deck from 9:00pm till approximately 12:45am or so.
we were pratically modifying the bike. taking out the mudguard, puting new casing for the pipe, add design, coloring the tyre. anything tt helps in making the bike "wanceng" tt's how my guy alwyas say.
i was thinking to myself isnt it better if every pay day, he would makeover for me my hair, next pay day, buy for me tops and the following pay, he would send me to facial, medicure,pedicure. hahahs.
FATIN TTS SO FAT HOPES!
Anw, ya sometimes i wish im the bike and the bike is the girlfriend. cause the bike gets better tretment!! Every pay day, the bike looks different!! and every pay day i still look the same!!!oh ya and no one is allowed to touch the bike even. IM so jealous.
ok, thats not the part yet.
so while we were being the machanic for the day, one of the screws of the bike went missing. and he go
him: awwwwaaakkk!!!! maner screw die?
me: mane la kite tau
him: awak!!!! maner!!! there's suppose to be 4!!!
me: ape!! kite tak amek!! nak amek buat ape.. (continues doing my own stuff)
him: awak.. (whines whines whines)....
me: tu aper kat atas seat moto.!
him: awak da tau tak nak bilang. kan memenantkan untuk kite cari
me: ekh ekh.. suke hati ar.. kite bru je prasan screw die atas moto.
him: smiles. continue fixing the bike w the found-ed screw
i was so frustrated. i started making faces at him. concoted ones!
then he turned and look at me.
him: ouh buat muke!!!
me: hahahha! (luffing my ass off for getting caught making faces at him)diam la!!im so angry with you.
him: buat muke lagik, kite cat muke awak bru tau!!
seriously, his bike means so much to him. the bike ranking and my ranking the same!! total unfair. but nevertheless, after much persuasion,i was ranked, 100% loved and the bike was ranked 99:9% loved. isnt it still the same!
hmph!
tts a stry of my boyfriend. hahaha its been long since i typed out aniting random abt me and my boyfriend. so ya today i shall host up an entry on him.
girlfriend = bike
??? blah!
8:18 PM
Saturday, August 26, 2006
a note for aida: i love you as much you love. and i mean it. :))
7:53 PM
Friday, August 25, 2006
my bestfriends! since 2001
7:21 PM
Thursday, August 24, 2006
i dont mind forgiving and forget.but it definitely takes time.
i really felt tt there were nothing i had against her, but she just had to feel the direct opposite.
anw, cut the whole drama issue.
i still accept her as my friend
11:10 PM
WTH? SHILA, y cant i be worked up on wht you said abt me? especially when you just hosted up a paragraph in your entry mentioning something bad about me?
maybe its only you.
you felt tt were issues left unsaid? ya. i dont feel the way you feel. so ya. sorry. to me theres nothing to talk about.you felt tt ppl hate you. you felt stressed, everything. its just..you felt this..you felt that.... when there's nothing really wrong.
you expact ppl t accomadate to your mood-swings.
you need to control your mood-swings.seriously.Just because you felt tt ur unhappy/stressed/not-being-loved, it doesnt mean tt you have to vent out your anger to your friends who's practically has done nothing wrong.for instance lin and zainal.
if i wana go lunch with my new friends or old friends or just being alone. its my problem! why does it matter to you so much.
if i wana host up 1001 pictures of myself and fantasize myself, why cant i do it?
do everything have to suit to your preferance?
and i dun wan to be in your shoes.for wht. i dont bother trying even.
a simpler note,
ps: i totally agree with zainal.
and btw, everyone has their own stress to handle.
10:28 PM
Wednesday, August 23, 2006
Tiffany. Shes so hilarious. i thnk her prescence seriously.
(after persuading boyfriend tt i really want bike liscence first instead of car)
me: yay! im getting my enrollment on monday!
(decides to call mum)
me: oh no. its engaged
(puts down phone)
tiffy came along
tiffy: fatin you getting engaged on monday?
me & shu and lizah one word: hahahahhaahha!!!
Tiffy! i said the phone was engaged and tt im getting my enrollment done on monday. not im getting engaged on Monday!
:)))
helps. she need the hearing aid.
8:02 PM
Tuesday, August 22, 2006
im late for school. its like AGAIN. gosh! schools getting the worse of it everyday and i seriously have been dragging myself to sch.
ystd i wished tt the day wasnt so monotonous. and then when Michael Triarico came in for a surprise visit to our projetc room, instantly i knew work and more work is commminnnngg!!! -pulls hair-
and now, i thought its better just now before the arrival of our Michael Tririco cause its so liberating without assignments.
i was selected in the overall group presentation! FUCK! which equally mean tt ive got two presentations to present in a day. Damn awarding for Fatin who have been consistently slacking throughout the entire TEP.
What's left to do?
- Group 2 Presentation ppt
- Overall presentation ppt
- Group 2 presentation report
- Overall presentation report
- TEP report
Wht's completed?
- NONE
I know i know its a sin to be right here right now key-ing in this entry when i should be doing my projects. okay. im so full of sins. i admit.
everyday i just sit at this TEP BSU room and blog and today me & shu and tiffy are the only one here in the morning and i think we have jus died due t the mundane morning. died.
ok all those assignments are to b completed by friday!
FUCK! its already wednesday!
7:26 PM
me lizah, zainal and lilin enjoying our scrumptious lunch
2:04 AM
 before my aunt/neighbour pass away,
this note was slid on my house gate.
they wanted me and family to visit her on 21-08-06
but she passed away on the date itself.
at 4:00 am
1:22 AM
Monday, August 21, 2006
i think ive come to conclude tt, August is a bad month fer me. a really bad one. i hate it so much!
and not only tt, i see my friends proclaiming the same view as me.
first was dring the mystery shopping. me and tiffy couldnt find the outlet at all! we manage to only do one pathetic outlet and besides we got the pm shift! FUCK!
next, my boyfriend was caught up in an accident. a pretty bad one.
then some issues
then had a huge fight with boyfriend.
disagreement between me and hafiz. for the frist time!
then aunt/neighbour pass away ystd.
peer apprasel result was major FUCK! I got a freaking "C" for coming to school late! which exceeded 1 hour!
then friends dont seem t b able to undertstand friends. and only manage to see things from their perspective point of view. tts known as selfish.
ok im done.'
walala. i hate august i hate agust i hate august i hate august i hate august... cursing away
8:37 PM
Sunday, August 20, 2006
i guess i'll do this open and frank.
Shila, its not like wht you thought. when i have my new found friends, i cant be bothered with you guys. tts your point of view and im totally not concerend on how you see things.
basically. lunches. i didnt even go anywhere. im at my BSU room stuck with this computer. wht entertains me is the prescence of Adobe Photoshop. i thank the creator though!
and ya i thnk kayly for teaching me how t use it.
Sometimes you guys bothered to call me to go luch, sometimes i was non-existence maybe. i ddnt go lnch with my new-found-friend even. FYI im all alone in the BSU room.
this was wht Sebas Said
"Do you know who gets the record for 24 hrs in the room? its Fatin!"
i was in the room all day long regard-less of break-fast or lunch. with old friends or new-friends.
Seriously you and lizah spent more time together. and it never bothered me because maybe you guys took the same train home took the same route home. So i never thought of the word jealous cause i found a "new-found-friend" like you mentioned who have the same route home with me. She has never been 24-7 with me because FYI she's in year 1 nursing and sometimes our time-table don't telly. And more then sometimes i rather be with myself. and tts y sometimes my guy understood tt, he fetched me frm sch everytime.
Aida, she's been great. she's been with me. everytime we swallow each other problems despite the burning sensation.
i have to say, if she's just someone else, tt particular someone would be sick and tired to hear my problems. but hell no. she stood there right by my side. Eventhough knowing tt my problem was rather "garbabge".
oh ya btw, why cant i host up my pictures? own pictures? is there a huge problem behind this?
its my blog, my way, my pictures definitely. if you dont seem t b able to stand the pics tt i host up, by all means, you can remove my link from your page. it doesnt bother me at all. then you don't have to see how i fantasize myself.
and ya. wht i talk with lizah about things tt you dun understand.
you know soemthing girl, its not only you who felt tt way. i should be saying tt sentence instead of you. you guys spent so much time together especailly during your ELDC moments tt sometimes you gv some guys nick-names and i totally have no ideas cause i wasnt even updated. and i seriously never have mine-ed abt this stuff but sometimes the feeling of left-out do subsist. but i never felt it could be a problem for me till you raised up the matter.
i know the aftermath of this might be bitter because we've been close friends. but i never regreted to typed this entry.
actually i never wanted this to arise. there's alwyas a saying tt says "some things are better left unsaid"
but since you brought it up. i shall brought up the issue tt has been churning inside me all these while.
ps: this entry above is dedicated to Shila.
pps: its only fer her.
ppss: i expact no comments frm other readers.
tnx.
6:40 PM
Friday, August 18, 2006
i think this Y is gonna END soon
1:43 PM
isit so hard to be sincere?
since you cant, i shouldnt waste my time anymore.
i don't even know if there's such a thing as a "good-loyal-sincere-true boyfriend"
i now starting to doubt if youre even one now.
1:31 PM
ouh, been pretty lazy this morning. seriously i couldnt count how many times i hit the snooze button.
and im still yawning away. (deserve a slap)
i deserve a trashing maybe!
oh yes. im having cravings for mint ice-cream not sure why, the sudden craves seem t be indulging in. :)) slurps.
you know when you have this menses cramps and mood swings and the sudden cravings, i seriously tend to drive my boyfriend nuts! argh! even the slightest thing tt he does, can make my mood to hit the maxium spot! i can go crazy and wild and the tendency to argue and fight is definite.
oh no.TEP is coming to an end im going to close this blog down. till i get a new laptop, then i shall host it up again. :))
btw, btw, im gonna get my car liscence soon!! (claps&cheers) all thanks to the boyfriend. :))
he didnt want me to get a bike liscenece, cause he said it would be to dangerous for me, so the next alternative is car! yays! we're gonna share $$$ money $$$ to buy a mini-car. how does tt sound? yay! so i can drive to sch. ya if i can get my car before poly ends though! hehehe.
i need some suggestions.
private or school better?
11:53 AM
Thursday, August 17, 2006
Happy Birthday Mum!
i LOVE you
11:24 PM
ouh..isnt he adorable. :))
my boyfriend sister son.
hahah :) got it?
if im nt mistaken its.
muhammad something aniqi.
10:59 PM
wen am i getting to see the silly sassy sissy ladies??
im missing them...... :((((
crys.
whimps.
whines.
damn having my menses today. really bad fer a strt. cramps are of no doubt killing me. blah-
sat in the toilet fer almost 30 mins to get a natural cure. but doesnt seem t hlp. i guess i need a remedy fer this. anyone knows?
maybe i just need the boyfriend fer now.
8:13 PM
i would like to take tis oppurtunity to thnk wee keong frm project team 3!!!!
ystd was my last day fer mystery shopping -yays-
but me and tiffy couldnt find the time to finish up the last outelt which is located at serangoon north and Wee Keong comes to the rescue!!!!!
:)))
thnks so much fer the lift ya! we enjoyed the ride! not only tt, thnks fer sending us back to ang mo kio mrt station. we appreciate it very muccchhh! without you our mystery shopping wouldnt b completed!!!!
hail wee-keong.
the mini-van is so adorable!
8:03 PM
Wednesday, August 16, 2006
feeling: confused&nostalgic
Hey baby, when we are together, doing things that we love.
Every time you're near I feel like I'm in heaven, feeling high
I don't want to let go, girl.
I just need you to know girl.
I don't wanna run away, baby you're the one I need tonight,
No promises.
Baby, now I need to hold you tight, I just wanna die in your arms
Here tonight
Hey baby, when we are together, doing things that we love.
Everytime you're near I feel like I'm in heaven, feeling high
I don't want to let go, girl.
I just need you you to know girl.
I don't wanna run away, baby you're the one I need tonight,
No promises.
Baby, now I need to hold you tight, I just wanna die in your arms
I don't want to run away, I want to stay forever, thru Time and Time..
No promises
I don't wanna run away, I don't wanna be alone
No Promises
Baby, now I need to hold you tight, now and forever my love
No promises
I don't wanna run away, baby you're the one I need tonight,
No promises.
Baby, now I need to hold you tight, I just wanna die in your arms
I don't wanna run away, baby you're the one I need tonight,
No promises.
Baby, now I need to hold you tight, I just wanna die in your arms
Here tonight.
the 2nd last person who says tt he dedicated this song to me was Hanifah. he even sang it to me over the phone. then ystd, while i was at my guys house, he said this
he: awak, awak, awak denga lau=gu ni, lagu ni untuk awak. kite suke lagu ni.
me: wat song?
he: awak denga la.
at first i was like, hey ya this song i know. but i didnt know from where i heard it.then i strted re-calling. so somehow it rang the bell in me. and i just go silent. Hanifah was the person who dedicated this song to me before him
he: awak sedap tk lagu ni?
me: its very nice awak...
smiles~~~
a lighter note fer Hanifah;
im sorry for everything. you deserve better. me and aida believes so.
im so sorry.
11:45 PM
Tuesday, August 15, 2006
i did something very illegal! MIA. :))
nah wasnt because of no particular reason. but its because to become the nurse for the day. before i continue, i haf to say
me and tiffany declare tt MONDAY is bad-luck day.
- we lost our way while trying to figure out the routes of the mystery shopping. OMG. it was hell tiring and not only that we ended up in Heartland Mall (kovan). i was seriously fucked up! because we only had friggin 2 hours to complete the task and we had a total of 11 outlets to do within 3 days which is only equivalent to 6 hours! how pathetic! and we lost our way. its sucha a waste of money and time serously! i was fed-up!
then i got a call, my boyfriend met up with accident.
from kovan i rush down to siglap KFC and it took me like one and the one and the half hours to reach siglap.
luckily he wasnt tt bad. scratched the upperhand and the lower leg of the right sde of the body. my sweetheart, awwsss...
so ystd i didnt come to school and nursed him at home from 11:00am to 6:00pm. His mum and sis was so much friendlier then the other day i went. felt abit more bonded. im so glad the sister is fine after the delivery and she's so much skinnier now. i guess the mum knows whts best. Baby was cute. very cute. i get the pic uploaded in my nxt entry i dun have a card reader w me fer now.
oh ya then today the boyrfriend joins me to do the Mystery Shopping. Guess wht. i kept loosing the map and everything.
him: awak ure so careless. wheres the map
me: its with you right?
him: no its with you.
me: me? wait i check.
------
him: ade tak?
me: takde
him: its inside the palstic bag!
me: oh ok.!
hahahak. these happeded like 2-3 times. hahaha. then he said this
him: i think if we ever go the Amazing Race, i think we'll get last cause you always lost the map.
me: ya, i think so too!!! hehehehee
but he was rather sweet ystd. awwsss. no furthur mentioning.
up to you to put it into ur own fantasies. :)))))))
here's something very random between me and azizi
azizi: fatin kau nagn matair kau da satu bulan ekh?
me: hahahak. no lar... we're eight month plus plus already
azizi: wow! cepat sey!
hahaha. one month? i got tt quite alot from my friends also. they thot me and my darl has only been together for 1-2 months only.!!
but im happily counting down to 1 year annni.
eventhough superticious says its bad to do tt!!! :)
but im happy being w him.
11:21 PM
Monday, August 14, 2006
i dont deny the fact tt working at pizza hut has brought so much ppl to end up w couples and ya, taking the guy/gals as scandals. which some might prefer it t be tt way. worst BREAK-UPS. i read azizi's blog and it moved me so much to jot down on the issues at pizzahut which are meant to be kept confidential at first but now, nothing seemed of those sort. yes alot of the saying says something like this ""its always the back-of house ppl matair ngan the front-of-house nye pompuan kalau tak back-of-house, rider matair ngan budak front-of-house."" yes. i have to say it is so gawd damn true. there's alot of love triangle around the pizzahut. some even come in shape of octogen or perfect circle. i wonder~ anw, here's a very good example: me and hafiz. he moved me so much, sometimes even more then sometimes i got the urge to b with him. but you see, and everyone else know im attached. even the riders know, im happily or maybe not-happily attached to my all-time-deared kfc rider. but everyone in the pizzahut also know the love-scandal-affair between me and hafiz. he's the perfect guy for me. with looks, attitude and he's understanding. i would have to say a multiple of 5 better then my boyfriend BUT... i see it this way i could have loved hafiz and could have been with him cause i know him so much longer then my own boyfriend. he treated so much-more perfect then my boyfriend did. if my boyrfriend sent me to just underneath my block, he sent me home right to my very door-step. make sure i entered, shut the door before he made his way. sometimes he deserves the title. but then to think again. this is wht the challeges of being in a relationship is all about. i could be attached to my boyfriend today and tommorow, i met a better guy and i left him and then when im attached w my new boyfriend i could just simply leave him behind and go for a better guy. i will keep getting myself to square one. i would have moved to nowhere. i guess tts wht commitment is all about. to just be contented with whoever im with for now. if i keep leaving them for a better guy, i guess there's so much better guy out-there. so i guess ive to compromise abit more then i should. if it leads me to great happiness im more then bliss, glad and gratified. as long you know ur limits to everything, then everything would be perfect-clean-fun. to my ira and dean. ure the chick-flick couple i must say. both like each other and things seemed so well and easy. but only the coules within themselves would know better. mizah and khush. OMG. i wish i could be like both of you. you guys can go "kau aku" without having the "tersinggung" feeling. and i know the fact abt the prescence of 3rd party. seemed even harder cause everyone is working together under the same hut. "dream girl" which i just learnt ystd. mizah will get wht im trying t say. azizi and this girl. no names shall be mentioned. if you know i would be not-surprised cause pizzahut is so small and alot of things happened. news spread like wild-fire. Bear and shima Faisal, Hadi,...bla bla bla... boyfriend got snatched by training manager. you know. all these stuff. im so scared one-fine-day someone could just snatched my boyfriend away. or vice-versa. i so can see it. some are for better, some are for worse. love, lust, scandals. this is just a random post. but i see pizzahut as an interesting place. hey its full of chllenges. the ppl especially. i enjoyed every single moment of my pizzahut days. it somehow instilled alot on me. BGR relationship in pizahut could have been a BLOCK-BUSTER movie i suppose. theres alot more relationship pbrlms tt i never mentioned but only those who werk at pizzahut will know. pizahut=match-making place rite farz? hahaha. jus joking. anw, this is wht tt makes pizahut so much interesting then it should be. can u imagine a pizzahut store, with all-strict EDI rules. i guess if tt happens, you wun be seeing me in there. :)))
i think i need a love doctor right-away!!!
10:56 PM
Sunday, August 13, 2006
SUNDAY was awesome, terrific, beyond say!
seriously, i have never been to an "ESCORT" as in,
elaboration: during a malay wedding, we the motor-cycles will follow the bride and grooms to their homes and ya vice-versa.
so the boyrfiend fecthed me at 12:00pm and we headed to fahrin's house to wait for the rest of the Vanquiz members to arrive. Oh ya then we headed to the groom's wed area.
when i first reach, the first thing on my mind was OMG, WTH.
there were more then 70 bikes!! all of them were there to escort. can u freaking imagine!! its damn pack! Some were damn good looking. anw, skip tt part. there so many bikes, different size, big small midget, huge and there was one, gigantic! there were so many bikes tt, during our way on the PIE, we took up 2 of the lanes and other vehicles could take up the remaining one lane. its was GREAT. everyone strted to blow their bikes and we got so much of attention even on the road!
it was cool!
it was my first time in my legal 18 yrs of age to go out with such a big group of bikers!
splendid!
11:22 PM
Saturday, August 12, 2006
Friday: GAMES DAY.
holy ke-moly. Bonding session result in so much bond between us. between the BSU project teams and not fergetting the Admin team.
im learing to LOVE the BSU.
but im sad the attachment is nearing to over. sobs&whines.
2 more weeks to go.....
crycry.
anw, my team consisting of me lizah, shawn, kia-kia, lilin and few more tht i dont remeber the names, won
18 to 5!!!! yay!! yay!!
sticks out tongue to Britney Group!! hehehe!!
i said this to Tiffy who werent there during the Games Day
me: ekh my grp scored 18 lehz... britney group scored 5 only!
tiffy: huh.....Britney grp os my grp also!!!! Hahhaha
me: hahahah... lucky you never come or else their grp wud have scored zero! hahahha
lizah who was ear-dropping, was luffing as weell..
ok. Fatins entry begn to bore!
FUCK!
10:30 PM
Friday, August 11, 2006
at esplanade on 8th August
9:00pm
10:23 AM
the day that we went out to esplanade was rather fun.
it was my first time going out with kak lili and hre boyfriend, aida and her boyfriend and me and my boyfirend of course.
the 3 couples were practically splendid.
there was one part where the 3 bikes were busy talking on the road and we didnt realise tt the traffic has turn green and the cars behind strted honking.. hehehe...
o find tt rather cute. though.
ok fatin's getting lamer day by day! no doubt on tt!
tts just something i wana highlight. ok so random
2:18 AM
Thursday, August 10, 2006
i just realised, i am soo NOT a multi-tasker, even i claimed so to be. thats probably cos i forgot what my boyfriend told me over the phone a moment ago while i was still attempting to read someone elses blog and digest the contents of the conversation into my head both at the same time.
result: i actually forgot i had the phone attached to the ear! and urms, i totally forgot the contents of the convo.
great. what time are you fetching me? urmmms... heh.
5:49 AM
a week has past me but im still in a condition where my mood isnt of a stable wavelength. :(
i guess things took a little turn and its just getting slightly very much depressive for now. i dont wish to elaborate on it.
i've got alot of assignments to do. and i had done none of it. and guess wht? submission date is tommmorow. im so busy and i doubt of having a life anymore.besides sometyms i just wana be with him, his also busy. i think i need some rest then turning up for sch and werk with puffy and swollen eyes tht tells tales. plus the long hours of this TEP is draining my senses away. I've constantly seeing myself in mood-swings. and i so pity the boyfriend who has to put up with this uncontrolable emotional state.
the only drive fer me to work is the presence of money. all i wana do is shop! shop! shop!
and not only that the friendly werking collegues who never fail to crack me up.sometimes the funny/werid/bizzare customers, getting on the edge of my nerves. uuurrghh. well if it doesnt just get any better.
i glad that the brain get me to the sudden mood to blog. cause i wana rant rant rant -grins.
soemtimes i wonder theres so much things life has brought me this few days.
sometimes it glided so smoothly but sometimes the sand-paper seem smoother. neverthelss.
there's nothing more like revisiting your little fragments of memories that remained invariable, and knowing how yourself have altered to adapt fresh modifications.
reminiscence is penance, that i know
but how can one help it, right? right.
i just can't help the way it is.
i just can't swallow the morbid truth down my throat
cos it burns like vodka.
...
okays, that's a idea. so maybe i'll experience some horrible vomit inducing aftermaths? harhar quite an addiction huh. oooh!
conclusion : addictions are detrimental
nevermind, ignore. i have a tendency to blog to myself
just sometimes, remembrance can be such a splendid thing. but some people (like me) mishandle it by throwing it at situations like this and expect some witty anwers in trade. quite a shame though. -makes a face
i just wana say:
i LOVE my boyfriend and i thank the beautiful GOD. fer keeping us this way. cause i dont wana part from him. i dont wish to. i LOVE him more then i LOVE anyone else.
1:28 AM
Wednesday, August 09, 2006
i think im not a good girlfriend.
eventhough my boyfriend think otherwise.
-crycry
7:26 PM
Tuesday, August 08, 2006
Curently Feeling: Calm
GO SINGAPORE!
ITS YOUR BIRTHDAY
WE'RE GONNA PARTY LIKE ITS YOUR BIRTHDAY!
HAPPY NATIONAL DAY TO THE KIASU SINGAPOREANS!
aint it amazing? only Singaporeans have that title? wells. Happy Birthday.
had to say Tuesday night was Awesome. Tutuion was cancelled and i was able to Rock the Day with my loved ones.
Especially my boyfriend, Aida, Kak Lili and their boyfriends. yay yay yay.
after fetching me from sch, we headed home to change and then headed fer lunch at Bedok Burger King and proceed to Wans/ Kak Lili house.
Initial plan was to watch Tokyo Drift with my guy but we swop it to mid-night movie instead cause we got to watch the AWESOME fireworks first. Splendid i must say! it was so lovely. very loveely. then me and my boyfriend headed fer Tokyo Drift mid-nght show at Tampines Mall.
llalalala...im so loving the fireworks.
11:20 PM
currently feeling : loved and then not loved..and then loved again..
i feel secure
i feel content
i feel loved
:))
I LEAD SUCHA MUNDANE LIFE!
shred me into pieces!!
%Y
snap snap snap
10:52 PM
currently feeling: Contemplative
yesterday the boy-friend is rather sweet. because he blew-me-up in the morning and he knows it well on how to get me back to my right mind. :)
being sucha a darl, he picked me up after my tutuion at Chinese Garden (Jurong East) ystd. but no, he didnt pick me up at Jurong but he pick me up at Kallang instead. Headed for dinner. You know i seldom have late night dinner with him. i so adore this late-night dinners, eventhough it is just under the shine of moon-light.
neverthelss i LOVE the boyfriend and guess wht?
he planning to buy me a
- helmet,
-a helmet bag, (so i can bring to sch)
- a couple pair MP3 player
-and a bigger MMC card fer my handphone.
yays. grinns and smiles.
ive got tons of projects to do and im still taking flexi-leave today. im so dead. and i think i shall die. (kiok)
Pensive for now, im so shagged and tired since last saturday.work was tiring and sunday was strenous and ystd was teaching tution at jurong. lucky he fetched me i wud have probably fainted at dhoby ghout maybe. :))
what?
argh. im rtather stressed up with everything, now that i don't have a literal problem with my all-time loved boyfriend. but i have problems with my surrounding ppl. SERIOUS! im going insane. so much more nearing to BONKERS indeed. Im so sleepy now i think my eyes are falling and closing any minute as i strived to write out at least an entry but yeah, its full of random stuff. who the hell cares!
hiaz..now i have been staring at this entry fer atleast 3 mins not knowing what to blog. my mind is full of crap and rubbish! i just felt as though im not motivated to blog anymore. i mean for the day. :(( life is so bad. why does it have always to be that way?
if its not him, its my family, if its not my family, its my friends
wait
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..
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maybe its just me! yes its me. the problems of all probelms. *whines*
:(
somebody give me some burst of bliss pls.
sometimes when i feel so depressed and really depressed. lyk super depressed, and when everything is bleak, black and grey. My boyfriend comes in handy. his lyk my instant panadol. sigggghhh... cant wait to mit him later. i think i really need the boyfriend powder for now.
ps: i love my boyfriend
pps: i cannot love you
ppss: I ONLY LOVE MY BOYFRIEND AND NOT YOU.
:)
ok. i feel abit relieved.
fire-works here i come! 3 couples to esplanade ltr!
10:06 PM
Monday, August 07, 2006
trust me working on both Saturdays and Sundays was Horrible.
H-O-R-R-I-B-L-E
really. Customers were a whole lot of them. like table for 20 table for 30 that sort of thing. And being the CSR(the one who's incharge of the admission of the customers),
i went Haywire. really. By 9:00pm, fatin no longer looks like Fatin. i practically look like one ah-mah running around the store, pushing seats and tables making sure the crowd was uner control, food received, order taken and bills settled. Arrgh.! its not even the NATIONAL DAY yet! holy shit!
im so gonna die.!
but after all those hard work on Saturday,
Hafiz treat me to dinner a late night dinner (2:00am)
when this picture was taken, Bear(the most left) ask me this question
Bear: Fatin kau pilih, kau nak yang cute ke, yang berg ke, yang handsome ke, yang kental?
hahahah. khai kental? hahahas
Fried chilli sting-ray and tom-yam soup. yummmys.. sluuurrrpss... you tell me how can i not adore his company. sent me home and that's all. nothing else. nope nothing more.
really! ok. maybe abit more. we sat at the void-deck and had to do some personal talk within ourselve to about 3:plus in the morning.
Nevertheless there wasnt any PHYSICAL INTINMACY!
Sunday Lunch break was great. i met up with my guy and we went camwhore-ing.
serious. his manger was like (shakes-head). Im so glad even his working mates and manager doesnt mind my prescence.Unlike Pizzahut, i guess he would be chase out if he were just to sit outside my pizzahut backyard.
here are some of the pics. Seriously we're bored.
his the reason why working is so much fun. and break time is absolutely entertaining and pleasurable. With him being such a camwhore as-well
Then on Sunday night, my boyfriend sent me home instead, we had ice-cream before we went off. I had Milo Ice-cream and he had Magnum.
hahahas something just cross my mind.
while i was at Bali, there were ppl selling ice-creams everywhere, then my friend Erni, saw this georgeous surfer guy tanning.
(pardon if its in malay language)
she was like: awwwww....sape agak nye name die.
me: entah michael kot? kau try jerit sikit ar tngok dier pusing ke tak.
erni: hahahks.
soon came along this indonesia man selling the ice-cream...
he says: mau magnum ice-cream enggak?
erni: enggak mau magnum...mau michael. yang disitu. (pointing to tt surfer guy)
me, mizah and khush were luffing the hell outta themselves. Even the ice-cream man was luffing i suppose.
ya. so back to where i was, my darl bought magnum. so i just had to smile :)) remebering the incident.
oh ya. he gave me the 360 degrees kiss before he left off.
ps: anyone knows how to do a 360 degrees kiss pls tag me.
cause i left aida, kak lili, hanifah, irwan and wan in doubts. its fer me to know fer you to find out thingy
alrite alligators.
4:00 AM
let strt of with friday.
cool, fun, great, fantastic maybe abit romantic. when it shouldnt be
i would be lying if i wouldnt say it is romantic. cause he is one romantic guy. :))
yes. headed of from esplanade, then to the merlion, then to the Singapore River then to don't know where...and then dont know where...and we're lost...
and we found ourself at city hall then to marina square and then back to espalnade at almost 12:00am. it was fun. i had to say there were heaps of luffs that we undergo. we laugh about the traffic light, about the esplanade.
we just self-proclaimed a esplanade 2 which is located beside the padang.
HAHHAHAs. He mistook the building for Esplanade.
it was fun that we nearly missed our last train home. Phew. can you imagine if i have to take cab from cityhall to bedok
and he has to take from cityhall to woodlands. wouldnt that cost a BOMB? phew-ness..
erm. i shall not reveal who i went out with. only the ppl know will know.
:)
3:30 AM
Sunday, August 06, 2006
Who loves my new template, new blog, new add!
(cue: me!!! me!!! MEEEE!!!!)
:D
i guess www.mermaidsista.blogspot.com is no longer of existence. sobs-
anw, here comes. decadent-melancholy. (claps)
she does it all by her-self. perfecto!
(grinnnnssss)
test test...testing 1 2 3.
HOT!
im all ready to blog. YAYYYYYY
3:00 PM
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